ELI

Just so you know; I think you're the most beautiful girl. I think we could be forever. I would give you the world. Never been fluent in speaking to women like you. Because I get nervous. So I might've let you get away. But I'm still praying. Only thing on my list this year is your name. Because yours is the only one that drives me insane; every time I hear. I just want you here, next to me; Never did this. You know more about this love thing. So, I was hoping you could teach me. And when it gets cold on days, I'm hoping you can wrap me up. Took me all year. Just to get past the lonely tears, And not having you here. Just so you know, Since fifth grade you've been the object of my affection. Sarah, from recollection you were the epitome of 'pure perfection'. I've prayed. Every day for the words to say. And, every day, the words just fade away.

                                               Took the night off just so I can see you,                                                        You call me and tell me you're alone.  I got the pedal to the floor I'm on my' way to see you. Won't knock on your door, you know im the only other one with a key. Summer is coming I know you can feel it, or is it just me? Nervous; I love how you chose to wear my favorite color tonight. I love how you walking round like you on a runway tonight. You just wanna have fun, and make memories that you can barely remember. And I know just how you feel. This is what happens when you wear red heels: They don't do it like you, girl that's so crazy. At the end ...

Young rebel, raised by the metal.  Enslaved to the ways of the hoods' wickedness; So ready, to be ready, to be down for whatever; Hardly ever was he clever, following the steps of those who weren't any better. War ready; Ready for war, Guns locked & loaded. But don't know what he fighting for. He just , joining the crew. A way to make a name; It's ironic the greats fought to be free from chains, but he fights to have whips and chains, And change, but... Can't change until we change ourselves; War Ready; He  doesn't  need any help. I guess he "self-made", his only interest's to get paid, with interest, from a foe he's had since the ninth grade. That's petty. But whatever dawg, that's life. He ain't into playing cards; he'd just rather roll the dice, and take chances. Got momma crying to her best friends like "where did I go wrong?" Trying to be strong; But inside I c...

It’s never too late. You said you wanna change, what's stopping you? You said you love this dude, what's wrong with you?  Are you insane? Not clinically, A little mentally - disoriented? Does he do it to ya?  I see you frowning every day, He doesn't make you happy. And your momma told you this, But you never believed that it would happen. So now you're kind of stuck; Weighing your options. Cause at times he's really nice, And other times he's plain heartless. He makes "sorry" and "I love you" seem like they're just words. He tells you the best lies that you ever heard. You don't even know what's true anymore, You don't even know what to do anymore. You answer to his name-calling: 'little whore.' You're scared to walk out the door. And make excuses for him as if he's never done this before.  You're 'no' doesn't phase him. :: Wonder how he wo...

Let me see your ambition. Bare naked; Strip your make up off, With all your flaws, Show me what I'm missing. I wanna make love to your AS-pirations, it's not just your ASS-ets that attract me like a magnet. And you be like "if you want it, you can have it." Don't make it so easy. I'd rather fight for what's mine then to just grab it. I know you're one in a mil. Chances are; this be the only time I may ever have. My friends be like "get her while she's hot." Ahh but I treat her like a meal, & Let things cool off, I Don't wanna get burned, She'll forever be amazing. I'm good with waiting. Yep, you're 'badd'. Bad meaning good. Good looking, have whole hood looking. Breaking their necks. You are a piece of art. You take a piece of my heart with every thought. You can never be removed from the recesses of my brain. You are healing, for my pain....

Nigger or Nigga: Either way its Mentally pulling the trigger; the memories recalled of our ancestors genocide or suicide or homicide. Why do think they fought and died for this shit?! Years of mockery ! Years of the tears and of the hearing of the cracking of the whips. And chains. The pain; "go on and tell me what's your name!" ROOTS! Like trees we are firm-standing . But only when we say the nigga word do we lower ourselves to lower standards. Smiling , and dappin' up . We're so accustomed to that word ; swear its like we're in motion and we never wanna back it up , and reflect. On The reflex of that whip , cracking on the back of our great great great greats, As they: pick that cotton and make them plates. Nigger has become internalized , Into the minds of our youth. So the minds of our youth have to be - scrutinized! By the right guys . Black or white guys. As long as they bring positivity to their th...

Right hand glued to old wrongs. Left one, penning feelings into new songs. Eyes staring out the only window in the room. Metal bars clinging. Such is this mans history. The lamentations of an convict.  skin stretched over tired bones. He's young & successful, and has nothing to showcase his talent. Written X's that never cross, with unfinished dots on I's. He seeks the prize. The Lamentations of a writer. Her heart beats like drums. Scared. Swollen ankles and upset stomachs; mornings never the same. 5 more months of pain. Story of her life: 16, with child. Untyped periods, lost in bleeding sentences, which run on. She runs on. The lamentations of the pregnant teenager. Their breathing slows down. Making every breath count. Growling stomachs & feverish mornings. Thirst periods because no clean water. Death in the air, fading skin & hair. The lamentations of hungry children of Africa. The...

Until then i realized, The choices i made, The decisions i chose, Options i neglected, Justified, All the wrong reasons. My instincts deceived me, The reasoning side, Of the conscience i had. Destroyed my own consciousness. Relying on beliefs, Yet my heart never proved - right, All the wrong things. Lust, my enemy became my shadow, The same destroyed me, Striking forward was erasing me, Little did my mentality know; Covered in a cloud of mysticism, Seeing love, rooted in lust, Finding passion cultivated in the dark, Proving desire lit in envy, Against the realities i went, Yet still i justified, All the wrong things we could've made right. You wanted me for the person I’m not. I want you because; you're hot. (To be frank) You want what you see on the outside, And, all i could care about was being on the inside. And Society's not okay with that. You want me for all the reasons I hat...

“11:11 / Living in a Broken World” Running from guilt, Tripping over what’s concealed. Frank conversations with the Lord, Asking “is this real? Is this how life is? Do I really have to live it? Why you choose me? Am I really one of the gifted?” Chosen few, He CHOSE a few. I look at myself:  “Are you sure if it’s you?” Stubbornness, Ignorance, I think that sums me up. Cause I hear God, And learn about him but im straddling fences up. Monday through Saturday, eight to eight, I was sanctified, but after nine it’s ‘after dark’, and Im another guy. They see me on twitter, And that’s not im portrayed, so they tell me to calm down, And be the same. My sister know me, And she know how I was raised, How my momma was home at nights and we missed her for days. How we never had our fathers, they’re still stuck in their ways. And how they’ll probably be the same until they’re old and gray. Broken mirror. This reflec...

Reflections, portrayed in a broken mirror, Shows she’s broken, in pieces. She’s screaming for help, But no one can hear her. She’s bleeding from shards, cutting her deep, He sees it, he likes it. He isn’t willing to admit it, He’s sickening; he hurts her – body & spirit. All with a clear conscience, He inflicts wounds; her heart and skin, Are bruised. With each blow she thinks: “These years we've wasted?”  Stayed too long, could’ve been gotten away. She wanted to wait it out, hoped the pain would not last any longer, She thought he needed time. Time; only made him stronger.  The kids. She kept thinking her luck could change. And it did after the first year, Then he went back to the same.  He. The Phase. The phases:                 1. Sex her         ...

"And though she be but little she is fierce. A midsummer’s night dream." - Shakespeare Ambitious girl, strive drives me insane. I'm Tryna stay with you, not to play with you, but to lay with you. I'll pray with you, if that's what you prefer. If not; it’s cool, you don't have to believe in what I believe in. But believe in something. See the last one I dated, believed in nothing. We wake up, I go to work, she leave out, Come back with some stuff that won't matter when it all ends, Or worse i ask "baby, what you aspire to be" To which she reply "interrogating me?"... Excuse me if I'm coming off strong but I wanna see you strong in case you end up alone. Ambitious girl, what's going on? I'd rather you tell me I can't come over because you got work in the morn, than to be in my face drunk & carrying on. See these women don't fit into your business, That's why they kn...