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--> “Are you willing to give up what you love for who you love?” ~BIG Sean They say- reality checks are too big to be cashed. I was mailed when I heard Tev had died from being stabbed. Seem like yesterday I just seen him smile & laugh. I be stressing' over little things; when I should be happy I can. Why these kids killing? Like they have no heart. I always had faith; light will swallow the dark. I'm hurting – talking to God – cause he the only one that feel my feelings. Houses bigger than a palace; mom a queen and so she deserve it. So im focused, they tryna throw me off line, but they just a virus. I'm full-speeding to the money, they just burning off all their tires. I'm huddled up with my team, that's Zach, Jay, Paige, and Mira. Fast forward a few years later, no we got the winners title. Remember the first time I was performing on stage: I was so nervous I performed reading off the page. S...

Alone in a room It's just me and you I feel so lost 'Cause I don't know what to do Now what if I choose the wrong thing to do I'm so afraid, afraid of disappointing you" - Yolanda Adams  There's no one in this room, there's only me & you. And I can hear you speaking to me, You're not here physically – but I can feel you, through the – sensations of my mind. I know you're with me all the time, and I know you're not the type to leave me. You said in your word, and through my own ears I've heard. You are the one, John 3:16, who sent his ONLY son, to die for me. His mother knelt on her knees & cried, but he did it for me & everyone that's alive. And still I, and still We we lie, we cheat, we steal & kill, all commandments that we've managed to break. Father, was all this your plan? Did you know i'd fall short? If so, then why? Why; am are we alive. Why, would you let us destroy what you've created. Earth! T...

Ambitious girl, stop allowing yourself to be susceptible, to the way he treat you – its unacceptable. Learn how to teach him: “If you ain't treatin' [me right] then I'm leaving, i'd rather be apart then to undergo beatings.” And when I say beating, I mean verbally as well as physically. Cause physically you're too beautiful for bruises, Leave if you have to. A relationship is not your definition, you're defined by your beauty, your fragrance – Cherry Blossom? I love it. Said you was having trust issues? Well, the magnificence of the magnificence of being in a relationship, is- you have the power to leave. And when you use that power, your eyes will open, and the dude you was hoping – for – gonna open doors. It's a sure thing. A womans love is so pure, calm, & effective y'all give so much more and it's obvious that guys don't always appreciate ya.___ _ We tend to fall in love at first – Right? And then we get bored and hope to see you later...

*Spoken Word* " And I admit, in this race I tend to struggle to relate in words It's like I'm an alien who alienates by the herd, so as far as being heard I guess I gotta wait, deprived by the station's eye Wale, more times than not, am not for whom the air waves" I'm in a race with myself.but thats really all i need. Not being cocky, its optimism, cause the only one who believes in me is me.  I 'expect the best and see the best in myself ' I have the attitude of: someone who " Hopes for the best, and prepares for the worst" I feel that if i don't carry that kind of mind set; someone will get hurt. They say your dreams are like interceptions; they're not given, you gotta take em'. And i've had my share of disappointments,  but my spirit you can't break it.  See; " my DESIRE is bigger than any obstacle"  I believe, so i can clear any obstacles; with my POTENTIAL to ACHIEVE.  ...

I heard the good die young. That's why im tryna live my life. I cheated on DESPAIR, And made DEDICATION my wife. So I will never back down, whatever's wrong ill make right. Ambitions lead to success, Never count on lucky strikes. Cause them strikes can leave you dead, leave you broken and confused. We as humans tend to not look at the bright side of things. But I tend to bring, with my imagination, some change. Broken Dreams will be healed, Buried secrets will be revealed. Focus as a poet has become all so real. So I'm chill.... ...Dreams are like interceptions; gotta take em' and just run. I'm glad I realize my dream; cause I will never need a gun. Never needed weed. My mind was originally inspirational. And I love you mom; you're my inspiration - thought I'd let you know. So as I began to show. What I have as a poet. I just wanna be successful, And let everyone know it... ... So: as I sit & smile at the talent I possess. Just know it won't be to...

Lord. Protect my EYES so that I may see the visions you give to me. Allow me to reach my dreams through you; for I know "All things are possible through you" says Philippians 4:13. Lord God, protect my EARS so that they hear what's good in your name. Lord allow me to not hear in vain but hear what you say and when you call my name. And when you call my name help me to answer to you fleetly. And will you teach me to listen freely. Lord, protect my MOUTH. Allow me to hold it at such times where I'm compelled to yell or say things quite not of you. Lord, hold my tongue so that I may not speak curses and speak of your name in vain; that which is a commandment. Lord, keep me until I am able TOUCH your heavenly face and kneel at the hem of your garment. Lord, for I long to wash your feet with my tears and dry them - with my hair. Lord protect my sense of touch. Lord, protect my sense of SMELL, allow your heavenly aroma to fill my lungs and keep me breathing. Lord I bind al...

At night i can't sleep:  i toss & turn. my vision is blurred  it's like i lost my nerve four walls staring at me - ENCLOSING-  im paranoid - just HOPING- i live to see another 24. My mother always stressin'- says make sure i'm living right.  But she ain't raise a punk and i ain't going out without a fight. See everytime my eyes go to close i start sweating and blood comes out my nose. is somebody watching through the window? that's what it feels like. I can see it even when im under covers, DAMN, i aint even kiss my mother. This could be the last night she sees me. cause this Friday - getting creepy. then i wake up and i dont even see it.  but it left some clues; it has the same SHOES like me,  has the same SUIT - like my own.  my brother woke me up and said i was dreaming all alone. im flinching and shit - every time the wind blows.  every 5 seconds peeping out my window,  Investigating my surroundings for traps and taps. Goin...

My prayer to you... I wanna be more like David,  I wanna trust you in my DARK times as well as my LIGHT. I want affirmation that you'll be with me in times of peace. Next to me when i FIGHT.  I need you in my lifes instability.  I need you when my friends are no longer real to me.  I need you in my unmet expectations -  when i don't feel i'm "good enough" for the team. In times of personal failures - when i face public shame. For i know, a life without pain is a life without growth.  So as i proceed to grow, the pain in my words will show ...  Lord, i long for rescue.  Save me from myself,  make me like you.  i dont wanna be like anybody else.  Your son; died  he did it for me.  Lord, just open my eyes,  so that I - can see. Lord, i put it in your hands,  and as a man thats hard to say.  Lord, i strive to be like you,  and praise your name everyday. Lord, you negate my sorrows and delete all my fears...

DEATH leaves a heartache - no one can heal LOVE leaves a memory - no one can steal In the night of death - hopes for a star And you look for love - though it seem so far your life is a story - told by God  and he can close the book - whenever he decides  To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die we must embrace the pain,  Tears are our gift to God - healing water -  they heal us as they flow from our eyes when someone you LOVE becometh a MEMORY,  the memory becomes a treasure  So, for some moments in life where there are NO WORDS, then you must TREASURE everything - that you've heard.  Love has no desire but to fulfill itself to melt and be like a river flowing in the breeze. Ah! me, love can not be curbed by herbs,  when love is not madness, it isn't love that you've heard. Let your love be like mist,  coming softly but flooding the ocean. love is a small rose - beautiful & calm -  a...

Its 06' in your bedroom and im in love with you And i still love you but it fell through cause you wasn't you And my heart hurt, and my headache, so im smoking heavy. And you calling me, and you lecture me because smokings deadly. So i ash it, and we argue about how i've changed you tell me i'm like my father -the one phrase that drives me insane- Now it's "Fuck you, i hate you, i'm leaving you, we're done"  And i leave out, you text me, you tell me that i'm the one. You love me, I love you, your heart hurts, mine hurts too. And its just words; but they cut deep. Those tears fall down your face. I see the Advil on your bathroom floor, You tell me- your done i ask you are you sure. You'd be leaving me, your parents, and your girls. Maybe we should go for a walk That'd give us sometime to talk.  ---- Then my dad calls me on my phone conversation wasn't too long  Get me a flight to to North Carolin...

He was 'Ready to die' but then God spoke. what was said [He] begin to believe the 'Suicidal Thoughts' began to recede.  He got a 'Warning' in his bed one night; God spoke, he listened. God said "You alright?" and he just sat quiet. God said "You're a 'Friend of mine' even when nobody wants you" 'Everyday is a struggle '; but with God everyday is a virtue.  'Respect' to what would be a better life.  He was saved the next night.  it's like... He was ' Born Again'  Born To Win like 'Life after death' . it was death- death to the DIRTY flesh. God has really blessed. [he] passed the test. it might have too a little long. But patience is a virtue. Then God told him this. "Son, i will never let anybody hurt you... Everything that i do; they have reasons..." like every year has seasons And every relationship- PAIN as long as you have God--- its all guaranteed to change....