ELI

POETRY-EP: "AND."

my afflictions usually never get addressed in public.   But I realized; I should've treated you like everyday we was out in public.   Momma said, "she gon leave if you don't straighten up, mark my words." Now you're gone and I'm hurt ... I should've respected you. I should've treated you like you was Gods' daughter cause you was but I got caught up, now you're leaving.   showing me exactly who's Karma. Broke & disgusted, was feeling on top the world but now; the world hovers, I'm feeling the weight all over me.   I remember you used to lay all over me.   We ain't have nothing to do.   Them days, scrabble & monopoly was the substitute.   I need another Netflix and chill, it's long overdue.   And my friends telling me, "chill, it's long over dude."   She's long over you.   •••• •••• •••• •••• Over you.   She said, "I am so over you." She sa...

wRoNg I've been away for a long time.  You can blame me if you want to.  I never said what was on my mind.  But you was always there to run to.  And you wonder "why the distance?" You think it's you but it's me, trippin. Making excuses, saying that I never been in love.  You wasn't having it; You heard better stories.  You said I'm full of it,  Now I'm Macaulay Culkin; home alone.  I just wish that I could have last summer back.  Just to redo what I couldn't do. Ain't no reason I shouldn't be with you.  Feel like I broke your heart,  You said "that's almost true."  Because I left you so abrupt; You ain't know what to do.  Maybe I was nervous.  Who really knows? You thought I wasn't loyal. You thought my "love" was hoax.  But I wasn't playing. Sad it's been too long,  Everyday I just stare at your name in my phone.  Maybe I was wrong.....

You looked like you fell from heaven. You were special to me like freedom is special to an inmate. Since you've been gone I've been in a prison of sorts; My mind has retained everything about you from your hair to your smile to your amazing frame. It's hard to see other women because in them I just see your face. It's crazy. It drives me crazy. How could you just walk away? We weren't even finished what we started. And I tried my hardest to resolve it. How could you just walk away? Where did we go wrong? It's been 306 days and no call. No text, no love shown at all. My attempts at reconciliation never seem to work. I thought it was love. How misguided was I; I tried my hardest to resolve. I tried my best to hide the flaws I possessed...