ELI

Father-less Child; Rainy days, no smile. Drive for miles, Just me & myself. Father-less Child; Life filled with tribulations & trials. Grew up around the "hood", But one of the few that made it out. ««So why am I upset? Why am I feeling like a lame? Cause I never had a man to keep his son grow. Never had a man to watch my high school games, But mom came & after we  watched the sunset. I honor women more now, Cause I know its hard to keep a SON SET»» Father-less Child; Always ran wild. Mother had a hard time. Yet I love her for all her smiles. Father-less Child; Hopes that one day my father will arrive A Father-less Child; Hoping one day I can look into his eyes... -Eli

Looking inside of the mirror. Staring at her reflection. Trying to understand. Wishing  things were clearer. Wondering why the people she loves tend to neglect & mistreat her. ««She doesn't know. She feels worthless & disgusting. She got a gun to her head, Feeling suicidal! She needs help, Before she does it.»» But all they give her is hell. She feel the flames; its heating up. Her "boyfriend" beats her up. «He's no help.» And her "friends" all criticize, On a daily basis; asking why she doesn't just die. And her Fam, you would think that they was cool, But its torture everyday for this girl; she goes to school: with bruises & black eyes, gets laughed at and goes to  cry, causes her to miss classes, which she eventually  fails them all, then drops out of school... ««It gets deeper»» She leaves the crib, Late night, No sneakers. Dre beats over her ears, Bumping "no more pain", But she can still feel. W...

Scared I'm scared to get close. In fear you'll break my heart. I'm scared you're gonna end this. Just when it began to start. I'm scared you're gonna leave. Scared you're gonna go. I'm scared you aren't truthful, I fear there're things I do not know. I'm scared of loving you. Rather I'm scared of being in love. I'm scared of releasing my heart. For fear it'd just fall. I'm scared to let you in. Because I'm scared simply of what I am. I'm trying to allow you to love me. I'm trying to be the best man I can. I'm scared to let you hold me. When you do & let go. I cry. I'm scared to say hello. I'm scared to say goodbye. I'm scared to let you know these things. I do not know what this means. I'm scared this is all an illusions. LOVE isn't always what it seems. I am scared to kiss you. For my FIRST may be my LAST. ...

Cold eyes roam the Cold city in which I reside. Independently I roll because there is no one to sit by my side. Getting a fix from a nick, or a dime My tires roll, tired, I go home. Legs numbed, body sore, But I take this to the head because it helps to relieve stress. Opens up my mind, frees my spirit and takes control. My worries have a place to go; Only temporary! Dear Mary, Love how you can take the pain of young gentlemen and make it subside. Hypnotize his eyes & give pleasure to his mind. You out stretch your arms and he goes inside, a world where only stoners reside. But NO stoner am I. Why? Aha. I - on occasion, occasionally partake in your games. Stuck in a state of hunger, grabbing whatever's sweet to feed my needs. People think I'm mindless but until they smoke weed how can they tell me how it feels?! its real and I don't care who doesn't care cause I only do it to get by. Besides, the life I live just happens to be mine! T...

She said she's tired of her heart being manipulated. To the point where every guy she meet she hates him; before she dates him. Because of the first one; the second one paid for it. Then the third, then fourth; Naw, it’s not that she's a whore it’s just that; finding love doesn't work for her. So she chills on the shore, Crying oceans of tears; Thinkin' about the ocean floor; What it’d be like if she hit it. WITH NO WHERE TO GO! She feels that's the best decision. DROWN HER SORROWS. And her heart is in pieces, Broken bad; she believes no one can fix it. SHATTERED GLASS! Endures pain from others, Has no sisters, nor brothers. On bad terms with her mother; Father doing life; Raped her when she was younger; Ex-boyfriend tripppin', hits her but she doesn't even THINK, About dippin'; So she' feels all alone. Don't know a house that she can call a home. Calls out for help; But nobody answers...

Swirling; Twirling; My thoughts rage. I jump to conclusions. Ink drips on this page. I can't hold it in. I'm not sure why? I act psychotic. DRUGS! But it’s how I get by. I don't cheat And I try, Try not to lie. My brain; Restraints; My plausible remedy; Let's face it Not erase it.                 I AM MY OWN WORST ENEMY!

*BOLD my words, ITALIC dpryde's chrous*    I'm on the road, Haters be in my rear view vision. Keepin so forward from this brand new distance; the top is lookin closer as I breathe deep stress. Pinpointin' my new goal into my GPS; and left out, over the speed limit? Why not? Where my heart used to be I got an icebox. Feelin depressed and I’ll be missin out a lot, but you gotta go through hell before you chill in the clouds. ««Got my key in ignition, I'm speeding & swerving, in this life I search for perfection, though nobody is perfect. I'm tryna get to my goal; to show & to prove me, I'm on the road alone, I'm ridin so  smoothly. They really say I'm wack but they will not control this movie. If make this road icy, then I'm Kristi Yamaguchi! YEAH, desires yearning, this I'm certain, time for work, I change my gears, smell the rubber burning & ahh... "I got my foot on the gas. And my eye on the road; And baby I'...