ELI

(Co-writer: Monshea Newsome-Murray ) Effortlessly strong minded. You are Unbreakable. Like fine china. I’ve seen you dub dudes like it’s natural. I laugh at their courage. Hoping not to become one of them. But to be honest, I see your body and i just be forgetting. i be tryna risk it. There he sits, not a care in the world I wonder if he sees me? I’ve been longing for a chance, But I’m unsure if the opportunity will ever come; Is he out of my league or am I overthinking it? Shoot your shot all 2019, right? It’s supposed to be a “Hot Girl Summer” But I’m more Jhene Aiko I’m too nervous to even get close But life is about taking risks… But she’s a rose. Grown from the toughest concrete. Grown into something strong, Over time. I wouldn’t dare mess that up. I can’t. I can’t bring myself to risk a possible “no” I can’t bring myself to live for her. Am I really ready to give up what’s most important - Time, and space, for her? My mind is saying “no!” But my gut, the thing i give most ...

Who is this woman with the golden skin? That dances around like she has zero cares. That points her nose towards the sky and spins and flips and hits the plie so eloquently. It’s not the typical type of dancing you’d see here. I’m much more used to seeing women - twerking, working, every inch of the body their mommas blessed em with. Why - are my eyes so trained on this one? Why - do i get up from my seat at the bar? Just to move a little bit closer. Just to be a couple feet away. Just to be hypnotized by her swiftness, By the smooth breeze felt when she sautés. Who is this woman? That makes it so that i - so that i tell the bartender to close my tab. I am love drunk now. And i am praying i never get rid of this hangover. Who is this woman? Why hasn’t she stopped dancing? Why is she looking me in my eyes? I’m nervous now. As fuck. I have not the slightest clue how I’m going to approach. Why didn’t i just stay a couple more ...

It’s sad when stars get too hot; And then they blow up. You know, like what happened to Mac miller Or what happened to XXX. Lil Snupe, Lil Peep. I pray I don’t get too big, because I don’t want a hater coming after me. Or drugs taking my soul. I just want love permeating me… This whole year we’ve seen hurt. More mass shootings, cop killings, And localized crime got my brothers sitting in prisons. The news broke of a young lady gon missing; From around my city. A week later, news broke the she was dead, This… this shit be messing with my head, I know her family going through it. What do you say when people are grieving? I’ve been trying to find the words, But they’re always elusive. Writing and erasing. Writing and erasing. Writers block encaging, my mind. Nothing wants to present itself. This year has been draining… Seeing news clips of black bodies dropping gets tiring. And the blame stays on cops ki...

Correct me if I’m wrong, but Isn’t love a FORCE? Unable to be commanded, demanded, or swayed Unable to be taken away. I heard love is BIGGER THAN THE PERSON FEELING IT. I heard love can be invited in, But not dictated in how it chooses to express itself. I heard love is like lightening; It is UNPREDICTABLE. it rolls in like thunder and is IRREFUTABLE. It is CONDITION-LESS. Love, from what I’ve heard, is RADIANT like the sun. I heard love is FREE; Unable to bought or traded. Certainly, unable to be sold. Love, from what I’ve learned, is not to be treated as a substance or commodity. I heard love is BOUNDLESS . I heard that borders are nonexistent. I heard you can’t confine love. Love cannot be turned on as a reward, or turned off as a punishment. I understand that love speaks out for justice, And it protests when there has been a breach in   mora...