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Tell me that this fear is just paranoia in my mind; I'm  not straining, I'm  not struggling, I'm  not sinking, I'm  just fine. Until you come to mind and that falls through. Cause in every girl I've ever been with, I saw you. And we never workout, No, we never workout. That's why im single right now, It's just me and this couch. And these fuzzy memories; I try to piece together. Who's to blame when love fails and all else does too? Who's to blame when the one you thought you once knew is old news? Is it time? Or is it fate? Maybe both. Faith came a little too late; She's ghost. Lacked confidence for 8 years. You probably would've been feeling me. Never took the chance, Never took the opportunity. Killing me, Deep in my heart I know that it's written - somewhere - that me and you, we're supposed to be smitten. You gotta be my rib, because I feel like you're my Eve. Because ...

Physical circumcision isn't necessary now a days in covenanting with God, but Heart Circumcision is.  New Testament heart circumcision Is the equivalent to Old Testament flesh circumcision in that; a person can do very little to clean himself up, he needs help.    It's like what with our hearts. We can't clean our own hearts. God is the only one who can truly get it clean, Scott free.  He knows that human effort alone can not succeed against flesh and his help Is constantly being offered along with his strength to help us face the challenges along the process of our cleansing.  "God will circumcise your heart." He will do what can't be done in our strength. All that's needed is a willingness to change. He will do NOTHING without a persons consent.  Through Christ, we are dead to sin. (Ex/ in our ANGER we don't have to sin. The scriptures teach that we can be angry and not sin)  The men / women who are circumcised are not only different people, but a to...

Nothing to do when I come home late. But play - some music and let it take me away. To sleep - where I dream; of a woman lying right next to me. And then I wake up, and it's no one. The cycle will continue, It'll go on & on. My bed is; my bed. She's cold, she's hot. She's soft, she's not. I toss and turn every night. I just can't seem to ever get to 'sleep tight'. Maybe if I had - someone to share it with. Then it might get better. ------------------ Yet... When I get in bed sometimes my loneliness envelopes me; Rather than my blankets. And my head is resting upon my thoughts ; Instead of a pillow. And the slight weight on my chest - which should be you- is actually sadness. It feels like my mattress is on top of me , Instead of the latter. & all I can understand is you're out there . Where? How can I know? I'm having meetings with God nightly trying to use spiri-locatio...

No Rush. I just wanna know if my hands work? When they touch. Can they make a woman feel; good? Never have I ever felt another warm body, So tightly held against my own; Under a sky so perfectly lit by the moon, With a fire crackling in the middle of the night. I would love that more than anything. And I know I'm widely known for my patience but sometimes I just get tired of waiting. Praying to God like "God, you're the ultimate wingman, I know you've formulated a plan, sketched out and built up my girl. So where is she? Please send my eve." You can send the whole package. Because even if she is a little bit broken, it’s not like I would ever send her back; rather i'd just hold her body and keep her close until she's fixed from her cracks. And ever-after. I wanna know if my heart works? Can it love and be loved? Can it withstand a woman's demands of time & attention? Cause, I know I...

Lord: Ima be as open as I can in these lines. Be with me... I don't know. It's like I'm drifting further away from you each day. I know I'm not but it feels that way. You're really as close to me as my next breath. I've been Feeling like the rope in a game of tug of war: it's you Vs. Satan. And it's like Satan is getting an advantage. My own temptations and lustful desires haven't been helping & I've just been all over the place. Father, please forgive me (again). I know how wrong I am. Please allow me to have the courage to say 'no' to those thoughts, If I am writing this in hopes of receiving praise; I pray this be a leaf in the breeze. Never to surface again. I just want a closer relationship with you O'God. I'm praying that your son come into my heart and into my life. I am truly sorry I botched things up as of late. You, father, are so wonderfully merciful, you lavish your grace upon whoever r...