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  Alton Sterling,  Another one.  So disturbing,  Another one.  6:24   in the morning before the sun is up.  I watch the video three times and seen no fault where he coming from.  He never fought, they was holding him.  They tried say he had a gun on him, If he did have a gun on him,   How could he use it, when your knee was on top of him? We seen the footage, Ain't no escaping this one officer.  They looking to extinguish the black man,  I'm in anguish.  My brain so heavy, my pain so heavy.  Can't even trust my own city cops,  What a bad rep they've gotten.  All over the nation,  We've witnessed many cops being rotten.  And I don't wanna be a cop no mo'.  Scared for my safety, cause even I see a cop and wanna bust shots, on spot, Oh no!  He was just selling CDs.  Like the swap meet, but these boys was threatened by a bla...

Spending a year in your basement, and rarely coming out,  teaches you a lot about people.  The ones that say they got your back, but you get jammed up and can’t find them.  The ones that spend forever phone talking to you; And giving you superb advice on why to come down from the ledge.  And the ones who actually visit daily just to  make sure you're still good.  My brother told me what God already explained: All suffering is valid.  And just because I'm not dying doesn't mean I don't get to complain.  How I complain more about my life being stagnant? Than the boy with cancer complains about his life being short.  And that's okay because pain rarely follows rules.  I never even learned his name.  But he told me something I hold ever so closely: On those days when I wish I'd never woken up, I'm allowed to scream and ask why it's happening to good people like myself.  But I mus...

White folks pushing all of our buttons... They shoot a black man, leave him there gasping for air. I can't breathe. Don't get me started. you  got me riled up. Was gonna wish somebody send a few shots through those 2 cops that sent 6 through Alton; But that would prove faultless. World is too heartless. Most specifically, Most of these pigs in uniform be Cold blooded. my brother taught me. So we don't trust them, as sad as it seems. Well, what's sad is who gave them their keys. Who gave them a glock? We don't flock to the scene, just to hear them make excuses, We  search for justice and peace. For peace... For peace... For peace... But it always seems so far. I shouldn't be afraid every time I'm in my car. I shouldn't look around every where and feel uncomfortable. But I do, and it's a shame what the nation has become. ••• ••• ••• Momma crying tears. She don't want her son walking the streets by himself. That...