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[Back in the days when I was young I'm not a kid anymore But some days I sit and wish I was a kid again. Yea, I sit and wish I was a kid again, Yea I sit and wish. I'm a little grown, but still reminisce, Close your eyes nigga, you remember this? Friday night football game, something I'll forever miss. After parties in the gym, grinding underneath the rim, You forgot your school I.d.? Fuck, nigga, you ain't getting in. In the hallways acting like some hoodlums, See that scrap? Naw, damn I always miss the good ones. Them rumors spreading fast with that he say she say, Twenty people on the phone cause everybody did three-way. Man we played them girls for the fools, but, Wasn't no ladies like them ladies from other schools, Cause seeing them same old chicks got tired quick She was just fucking my boy, now she all on my dick, gossip, damn. Another chick pregnant, another nigga gone, I reminisce on all the chicks a nigga never bone, Pardon me ya'll I'm just fl...

The world needs balance, The world needs balance. Wake up to the news every morning of homies Wildin. Why don't you stay in school?    Education succeeds violence. Why spend your life in the hood? Get a new challenge. Get some new talents, The trap game gets old. Half the ones that say they trap, Get in the real game and just fold. Never going for the gold, But they settle for them  metals . Just be  palming  on that  pistol , Advocate for the devil. Willing to kill to survive, So much pain in mothers' eyes. Lost two sons:  one to system & and one to the skies . The devil in disguise , He don't care who stay alive . He just wanna create chaos , He just wanna ruin lives. Heaven or hell ? You choose . Whether Dead or in jail? You lose . Heartless or heartbroken ? Stories rolling on the news. I'm never amused. My generations amusement. Six flags fall to hal...

I've heard time waits for no man. Well, if that is true. Tell me why I'm still stuck in this time frame; Of trying to be with you I get thoughts about our friendship. Or, right now, lack thereof. Having feelings of regret, And emotions slowly began to flood. Thinking about how I could've asked you; to the prom - that night we were meant - To be together I could feel it; In my heart & through all of your subtle hints The way you'd smile when you walked past. Let me know you were the one. But I lost all my confidence when you walked past. I was afraid, Like a mother who lost her son. My life has been in the dark. I've been hoping you'd come through. With your smile + your eyes; And let your light shine through. I don't know if you'll read this poem. I don't know if anyone will. I just know what was on my heart is off. & now; I am slowly beginning to heal. -UnofficiallyYours.