ELI

  I think maybe I was lost in the concept of what I thought love was. And so maybe you figured I wasn't ready. Touché cause at the time I really wasn't. And that was heavy. You wasn't a burden, it was just the act of loving. Back then I've never loved before. Outside of family doors. You was the first girl that ever took me serious, And so maybe i was a little delirious & nervous. Dazed & confused. Every thought and every poem I've written from Last summer to now have been about you... And you're so far but I’d go the distance. Even my momma asks about you and why you went missing. I just tell her our connection was genuine, just had a couple differences. But how I'd love to have you back, & be stingy with your heart, and on that - extra emphasis. STINGY. WITH YOUR, HEART.

You're badd as ever. That's why you need a good guy to come and scoop you up. He gets you mad as ever. That's why need a good guy... I will never have you in your feelings. You just keep on doing your thing, don't worry. I ain't going nowhere. Unless we're going somewhere; I can't go anywhere, If ever you are never here, With me. You're badd as ever... That's why you need a good guy to come and scoop you up. He gets you mad as ever. That's why need a good guy... I will never get you mad. Girl you can always count on that. I don't wanna see you frown; No way. I only wanna hear you laugh. With me. That's why need a good guy to come and scoop you up. Don't you see a good guy, in me?

  My brother told me poetry be coming naturally. How? When recently I haven't written a thing. My mind, been overshadowed with all the death in the air, And all the temptations going around, This life got me scared right now... And I cannot write like this. I had writers block for over 9 months. And the pains hurt, People joke, say "you're a jerk, to make us wait." Because i haven't given birth to any new words as of late.... I cannot write like this. My momma told me this how life would get. "You win some, you lose some." I won a good girl and lost some closest friends. Now I be stressing like "when it's time to go?" Because I love life but I hate what the world has to show. Lord, let me know, don't be surprising me. I wanna set my family up for everything. I wanna see them happy before I leave... I cannot write like this. My mind is too heavy, all this death around us. You lose so...

"ELEVATION."  (RECORDING, SOUNDCLOUD)

... The heat will literally drain you.  So every time I get around you I lack service like lebron missing.  Then when you leave I start dissing, myself; pissed at all the facts that i forgot to relay to you.  So much on my brain, it's heavy as hell im literally mentally stressing and physical.  Rest in peace to my brothers, I pray for your souls individual, and just because you gone still know that we're indivisible.  And free my brothers who be innocent but sitting in prison though.  You gon be home soon. Don't you worry, I got you woe... I got a loaded weapon for any hater, But I won't use it, I won't do it.  A new man like a duplicate but y'all can't two him.  Y'all can't deuce him.  Yall can't dismiss the teacher,  I preach it you listen.  God Army,  God body.  Can't say I never had NO pot to piss in.  But them blocks was looking hot when my pops was missing.  Momma;...