"Deep Thoughts"

Ciroc in my hour glass;

Watching; as the hours pass;

Mind full like i ate a lot.

Ironically On my plate's - a lot;

A lot of hate,

A lot of angst;

To you it seems like my hearts healed, but on the inside I feel the pain.

There's hardly sunny days.

Cause if it isn't snowing then it probably rains.

And I probably just sit on my pain,

Staring out the window like "lord do you hear what I'm praying?"

Sitting in my room

Bumpin' k.dot's section 80;

Skipped to "keisha’s song";

That's my favorite.

All he tells is true stories on his records.

So when I'm in deep thought I just sit down and reflect.

Reflections of a boy:

Turning man;

It's not as fun as it sounds.

Young boys cherish life;

Before you settle down;

Because it truly gets hectic;

I have so many unsolved issues backed up; like a septic.

But I usually keep it quiet to prevent things from getting worse - antiseptic.

But now my emotions spilling out,

I hope they catch it.

Momma said she was proud of me.

Fellas tall as me but they ain't never looking down on me.

Say I'm they role model,

I just take it and i stride,

Nah I ain't being cocky,

In just a modest & humble guy;

I rely.

On;

The RELIance of God;

Peers pressure me to try drugs and I’ll admit I did try...

And I wonder if God cries at the sight of me sinning.

But I can't help it; we on this earth in a society where what's more important is winning.

I pray The Lord have pity.

I pray that when they see me round the city I don't get jumped; because honestly what they'll find is some pennies.

I'm broke.

It ain't a joke.

mean i dont laugh.

& I'm just Tryna get bread,

before my toe is wearing a tag...

Before I die.